Monday, 31 December 2012

The Worst Year

2012 was not a good year for me. I am so happy I'm finally done with it. However, there were some better moments sprinkled in there.

From January to March I was in the hospital. I finally got released for my birthday, and spent it at home where I could finally eat solid food again. I had an out-of-control St. Pattys (never again) and ended up in the hospital again the next day. But it got better after that.

By April, I was discharged and went back to work, having taken a semester off. Working was boring, but at least kept me occupied and made me some money. I got a hedgehog on April 2nd! Her name is Luna and she is the love of my life (I'm not kidding). Life got infinitely better after her addition.

May to August was just me working. Nothing interesting really, but my coworkers were great. At the end of August I went to KOI festival, a local music festival and saw some of my favourite bands.

In September I went back to school. I slumped along, with my friends helping me out. I lived at home for the first time, which was not fun with my brother at home too. I also went to the Casbys (Canadian Artists Selected By You) in October and had a blast. I also saw Mother Mother in November.

Broke my hard drive in December - lost all my pictures from this year. Passed my exams (just barely), but had a great Christmas.

Tonight will be awesome though, spending it with my best girl in my new best dress.

Friday, 28 December 2012

Some of My Favourite Movies of 2012

2012 is finally coming to a close, and I couldn't be happier. This year has been a really terrible year for me, but I saw quite a few good movies. Here is my list of favourite movies that came out this year. I'm not going to number them because I can't rank things to save my life, but I'll list a few them.

Moonrise Kingdom: the quirky tale of two young lovers who choose to run away together. I loved everything about this movie, but I especially covet Suzy's whole wardrobe!

Beasts of the Southern Wild: a beautiful film about young Hushpuppy living in the bathtub. I loved the cinematography, and I adore young Quvenzhan√©, who played Hushpuppy.

Chronicle: an amazing sci-fi movie about three teenagers who acquire weird powers. I actually really liked the style of "found footage" (even though I haven't seen Cloverfield yet). Michael B. Jordan is also so attractive in this movie.

Perks of Being a Wallflower: based on the classic book, a movie not about how highschool is, but how it should be. As one of my favourite books, I was surprised when I loved the movie. Parts were difficult to sit through, but I still thoroughly enjoyed it.

Life of Pi: another movie that was based on one of my favourite books. I was impressed with this movie, especially by the way they did the tiger. Heartbreaking, but awe-inspiring.

Magic Mike: okay, this movie isn't going to win any awards or stimulate your brain, but it was certainly entertaining. I have such a thing for Joe Manganiello that I knew I would love any movie where he strips mostly naked in. Hilariously terrible acting, very little plot, with an ending that didn't really end anything. Enjoy it for the hunky men.

The Avengers: superheroes at their best. Although I didn't see this movie until it was well out of theatres, I still really enjoyed it. It was fun, action packed, and entertaining.

Monday, 24 December 2012


We went to the Superstore last night and picked up this ridiculous dog costume for only $3. This is Elvis, our ten year old miniature poodle who just got a haircut. He looks so stupid as a elf, but it was too funny to pass up.

We spent the day at my aunt and uncle's place, eating good treats and catching up with all my relatives. I get to see them again tomorrow, then am seeing my dad's side of the family on boxing day.

Merry Christmas - hope your Christmas is joyful and fun!

Friday, 21 December 2012

Apocalypse Day

It is wrong to be disappointed the world didn't end today? I had been hoping the world, my life, would end today - end on a good note, you know?

That sounds terrible, but I promise I'm not nearly as bad as I was this time last year. I finished my exams (barely passing, but still passing), and worked three days this week. I'm completely and utterly exhausted, in every sense of the word.

I started Christmas shopping in just the last few days, and I'm starting to feel the stress. I haven't wrapped anything, I haven't even finished shopping for my family, much less my friends and everyone else. I had originally planned to bake this weekend, but now I have a friend coming (who I haven't bought a present for). 

My mom brought home chocolates today left over from work. I had a few (or more...) but there must have been nuts in them or something because my one eye has swollen completely shut and my nose is like a faucet.

Bad day all around.

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

When It Rains, It Pours

Yesterday was a difficult day, to say the least. Besides the fact that I wrote a killer accounting exam - I also lost everything I've ever saved on my laptop.

I came home after I finished my exam, and decided to give the dog a bath before I study for the exam I had today. The thing about my dog is that he doesn't get baths as often as he should, but he gets really (I mean REALLY) excited after. It's almost as if he completely reverts to puppy form. He runs around the house like a mad dog, jumping and smashing everything.

Disaster strikes. I'm sitting on the couch with my laptop reading some study notes and hanging out with my family. Crazy dog runs into the room, leaps over the arm of the couch, and lands directly on my computer. It crashes to the ground, and never turns on again.

I'm sitting there, freaking out about all my lost notes, so my dad gets up and tries to console me. He promptly gets dizzy, and runs to the bathroom. Before he makes it, I hear a crash and he is out cold on the floor. I called EMS immediately, but he wakes up before they get here. They run a whole bunch of tests and basically say he got up too fast and that everything is okay.

I thank my lucky stars that he's okay.

I take my computer in this morning to my local repairshop (who know me by name because I'm so technologically impaired). Four hours later, I get a phone call. There's nothing they can do - the hard drive is gone and nothing can be salvaged.

I'm an idiot. I haven't backed up my computer in almost a year. I type up all my notes but didn't think to email them to anyone. I have three more exams this week. I had over ten thousand songs on that laptop - none of which are currently on my ipod. I've taken so many pictures over the last year, and only a handful of them are on facebook. I had a huge chunk of my novel and hundreds of personal journals.

Moral of the story: Always always ALWAYS back up your stuff! Don't be like me. It sucks.

Saturday, 8 December 2012

My Heart, It Burns!

Today I woke up with the worst heartburn I've had in a long time. I've been suffering from pretty severe heartburn since I was first hospitalized and put on some super strong medications. Doctor after doctor has given me antacids but they work little, if at all. I've cut out most of the fun things in my diet, and only drink 2-3 pots of tea a day (a huge downgrade from my usual 7-8 pots).

I can't be the only one who suffers with heartburn so bad I can't sleep, can't think, can't do much but lay in bed. I thought it had died down when it was only a dull ache all day but this morning was killer.

Is there something I'm missing?

Friday, 7 December 2012

Marry the Night

Today is a very lucky day! If you don't know, I'm a HUGE Lady Gaga fan - a Little Monster actually! I have loved her for so long, and finally she is touring in Canada again. Back in October I spent a week between presales trying to get tickets with no luck. I have a great friend who bought me a single general admission ticket when I was at the outlet when tickets sold out before the sales guy could even get the program working.

Last week, she added a new tour date in a city that's even closer to my city and isn't huge like Toronto. Tickets went on sale about 10 minutes ago. AND GUESS WHO HAS 2 TICKETS?!

I'm beyond excited - literally dancing around my house. I cannot wait to see Mother Monster again. February 17th can't come soon enough!

Tuesday, 4 December 2012

Slows Days Ahead

I just finished watching the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show. I don't know how I feel about it. I've watched it the past few years and have usually felt some sort of emotion towards it. Today is less so.

I think I've just slowed down a whole lot. I'm done classes, so I don't really have a reason to get out of bed or get dressed really. I'm supposed to be studying, but I think my procrastination and apathy has reached an all-time high. I think I've read a page of my law textbook in the 8 hours I've had it open on my lap. I just don't really care anymore. I know that this is terrible, but I don't know how to combat my apathy.

I think I'm going to try to work out more. Maybe getting my endorphins working more will help me with getting everything else going. I know I should be excited about Christmas, but I find more and more I just don't care.

Man, depression sucks.

Friday, 30 November 2012

Let's Fall In Love

This is literally one of my favourite songs of 2012. I am SO in love with Mother Mother; they are a great Canadian band from out west.

I got the chance to see them perform live on Wednesday night. Besides the fact that I was super excited and a whole bunch of my old highschool friends were there, the club was surprisingly well set up. It's not a place I would ever go to for a bar or club night, but it really worked for the show. The opener, Hannah Georgas, was fabulous and I want to steal all her talent and her hair. She was a great opener for Mother Mother.

When Mother Mother finally hit the stage, the crowd was ready to dance. They were so energetic, dancing along and loving life. It was obvious they were having fun. I danced my heart out!

I think the best part was that after the show they stuck by the merch table and talked to every fan that wanted to chat. I had a good little talk with them and their merch guy. They are so funny and personable - I felt completely at ease, even though I was freaking out. We bonded over our mutual love of clarinets. I am so impressed with the band, they are so down-to-earth and truly thankful to each and every fan.

Live music is a drug for me, I swear. Seen any good shows lately?

Monday, 26 November 2012

The Week I Didn't Sleep

Last week was weird. Each night I got a maximum of 3 hours sleep, and two nights (in a row too) I didn't sleep at all. I don't really know why. Other than that, everything else was basically normal, only that I had a lot more free times.

I walked around like I was a zombie or something. I couldn't really think straight, and I caught myself daydreaming all the time. It was a bit weird, I was truly and completely out of it. But I also didn't feel tired. I wasn't drowsy or sleepy - and I never yawned. Weird, right?

Last night I slept 18 hours. That might seem odd to most, but a regular night for me is usually 12 hours. So this wasn't all that different for me, it just seemed interesting after the week I had before. I can't say I'm complaining though, I really missed sleep. Except now I'm yawning as I type this. Interesting how that works out.

I think I'm going to go have a nap now.

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

"What Would You Do?"

I'm currently watching an interesting show called "What Would You Do?" They create situations to challenge people and what they would do. This episode features two actors playing an interracial couple, and another actor playing a bigot who tells them how "disgusting" their relationship is. The bystanders are quick to come to the defense of the couple, calling the man "racist" and "ignorant".

Being a white woman myself, I know I won't ever have to worry about racism affecting how people see me. However, I work everyday to question things and make sure my personal biases (as everyone has them) don't affect how I view the world and how I act. I was really disappointed to find out that my brother went as a "Mexican" for halloween this year. First of all, I don't know how you can even dress as a race or ethnicity. The fact that he played up every stereotype in the book is offensive on its own. My brother is a lost cause though, even with me sending him multiple links about how it's offensive, showing him positive examples, and asking him how one would dress up as a white person, he refuses to see reason. It was really frustrating for me, as someone who often speaks out against sexism, to have person so closely related to me don an offensive costume.

Although I could just be getting angry because I tried to tell my mom that I was tired of getting harassed on my way to class. Instead of trying to calm me down, my brother storms in and tells me he understands it exactly because someone told him to get a haircut once.

Or am I just overreacting?

Tuesday, 20 November 2012

Music is my Religion

"Music is my Religion" - I used to have this on a t-shirt back in middle school. Back then, I was trying to rebel, listening only to music I knew my parents wouldn't like. This included a lot of bad 90s and early 2000s rap and punk. I like to think I've grown up a bit, but I will still always have a soft spot for Rage Against The Machine.

Today I got an itching to pick up my clarinet again. I haven't played in over 2 years, but I used to be quite good. I started playing in school when I was about 12, and I loved it so much my parents got me private lessons and bought me my own wooden Artley clarinet. I loved that baby and played it all through high school. When I graduated high school and moved out of my parents house, I had to decide if I wanted to take it with me. Living in a tiny dorm room with paper-thin walls, it got left behind. I've been meaning to pick up since, but just haven't had the time. I've also been terrified that I wouldn't be able to make a sound, and that scared me into avoiding it.

I picked it up today... and boy, have I missed it. I was surprised how quickly I got back into it. I don't have nearly the stamina I did a few years ago, but after a few minutes I realized I could still hit most of the high notes, even if my tone wasn't great. I think I'm going to keep practicing and see if I can get good again. It really was a great stress reliever, and there's something about the clarinet that just soothes my soul.

Also along the lines of music, I'm going to see Mother Mother next week. They're one of my favourite bands, they're a great Canadian indie rock band from out west. Here's one of my favourite songs, and my current theme song to my life:

Sunday, 18 November 2012

Lazy Sunday

... and Saturday... and Friday

I want to say I've been productive and all that, but that would be a lie.

Yesterday I went to the pottery, handspinning, and art sale. I once again realized I am inadequate, but I also got some Christmas presents so there's that. I also went to this huge antique store and it was really cool but I couldn't stay long. I'm definitely going back this week when it's less busy. I saw some beautiful vintage jewelry - lots of cameos. Is it acceptable to buy myself Christmas presents? What if I say it's so I look pretty at holiday parties? Even if I don't go to holiday parties? No?

I started my mom on Doctor Who this weekend. We watched the first two episodes of the ninth doctor last night. It's almost endearing how excited she is. She can't wait to knit this shawl she found that has the tardis in the pattern. And I'm always okay to watch the series again.

Thursday, 15 November 2012

Countdown to Christmas

My countdown to Christmas has begun! I have so much I need to do before Christmas - it's going to be one busy month! So far, my list of things I need to do is:

  • complete all my exams, and not fail anything!
  • make all my christmas presents... going to be a challenge for sure
  • work out a whole bunch and lose 10 pounds
  • get my skin to be a whole bunch better somehow
  • whiten my teeth for holiday parties
  • continue this blog - and maybe write about something actually interesting
  • make more products for my etsy shop
I hope I can at least do most of it, if not, then I have a start on my New Year's resolutions.

Wednesday, 14 November 2012

6 hour nap

So today I tried to be productive again.

It was a good effort. I suppose. I mean, I started out well. I got up early, ate a healthy breakfast (minus hot chocolate) and then worked out for about an hour before I basically died. I am SO out of shape it's embarrassing.

Then it got bad. I pretty much ate everything in the house, then went and took a nap, sleeping through my classes. Whoops! I took a super long nap and now I can't sleep, go figure. I've eaten so much in the last few hours, it's so terrible. I eat twice as much as my 18-year-old brother who is probably twice my size (for now). I think I'll try to work out again tomorrow and maybe see if I can actually have any willpower (not likely).

Tuesday, 13 November 2012


Today was one of my good days. I woke up early (for me) and got going right away. I got a whole bunch of errands done - including grocery shopping for healthy things. I kind of failed when I got home and ate it all, but at least it was low fat? I don't know, the fact that I got out of bed before noon is good enough for me.

I also went shopping for a bit, but didn't see much I liked. I'm getting so picky, and I basically stick to my standards. I want to get more rings and cardigans though, those will be my next purchases.

I'm also taking part in Dawn's Ornament Swap. I'm so excited to start making my ornament for my partner. I'm thinking something knit or something needle felted. Not sure yet though.

Monday, 12 November 2012

Rain rain, go away

It has been pouring all day today. And I mean all day. I got up early today to study for my last midterm (!!!). I said I was going to eat healthy and study all day. I mean, the intent was there. It didn't really work out though. I watched tv, played some wii, took a nap, and surfed the web for hours. I then went to campus, and got soaked on the way there. But I wrote my last midterm in psychology of gender. It wasn't too bad, and I'm so glad it's over.

Tomorrow I'm going grocery shopping so I can start making my own healthy food, instead of binging on sugary treats. Wish me luck!

Sunday, 11 November 2012

These are a few of my favourite things

I came to the realization last week that I watch a lot of television. I started listing off all the shows I watch, and I now understand why I'm constantly parked on the couch or laying in bed with my laptop.

As I type, I'm watching The Walking Dead with my mom, we're mentally preparing ourselves for the new episode tonight. I love zombies, and I'm trying to ease myself into more horror and scary things. I also watch True Blood for this reason. I now no longer have a problem with blood and gore.

I also watch drama. I really like Grey's Anatomy, and have been watching it since first season. Cristina is by far my favourite, and I really wish I could be more like her. I like to think some day I'll be as bad-ass as her. I find I identify with Merideth more though.

I really love Sci-Fi too though. I'm a Whovian, although I've only seen the new seasons. I plan to watch the older ones once exams are over. David Tennant is probably my favourite doctor, and Martha and Rose are probably my favourite companions, although I will always have a soft spot for Amy and Rory.

On Friday nights I watch Haven and Warehouse 13, more Sci-Fi shows. I haven't been watching them for very long, but I'm hooked!

Occasionally I watch Glee (usually when I'm procrastinating!) and I like America's Next Top Model, Project Runway, and RuPaul's Drag Race as guilty pleasures.

So basically I sit around a lot, invest a whole whack of my time in fictional characters, and replace socializing with real people with watching fictional people live out their lives. And that's all okay by me.

Saturday, 10 November 2012

Drop Spindle and Needle Felting

Today was the Fall Fibre Day at Circle R Ranch. It was a long day, but really fun and I learned so much!

Getting there was... an adventure. I didn't realized how far it was, but luckily I was going with my mom and she knew where she was going. With the help of the trusty GPS, we got there after about an hour and a half. The event was actually held in their outdoor centre, which was a good drive up skinny, muddy pathways. The place was very well organized, with many things for sale.

I first took part in the drop spindle workshop. It was taught by my Aunt, my mom's triplet sister. She was a really great teacher who didn't mind that I really didn't know what I was doing. We got a good chance to try with different kinds of fibre, and by the end of it we all went home with our own little bit of yarn. I'm definitely going to try drop spindle spinning in the future.

I also tried my hand at needle felting. I was surprised that in just over an hour I went home with a super cute ornament with a little snowman on it. I've always been interested in needle felting (stabbing things over and over again? of course!). I finally tried it out and I have to say - I've already caught the bug!

Overall, the day was really fun and I learned a lot. I can't wait to see what Christmas presents I can make from this!

Friday, 9 November 2012

Frozen Yogurt with Good People

I had a bit of a falling out with one of my closest guy friends recently. It has been rough considering my other close guy friends live with him. I don't have a huge group of friends so I'm trying to keep them around if at all possible. Tonight was one of those nights. We hung out at their place for a little bit, which was okay since I know that place almost as if I lived there. I suggested we go get frozen yogurt, one of my new obsessions.

Man, I really love frozen yogurt. I mean, I love ice cream, but frozen yogurt has a special place in my heart. I love being able to customize it, and add any topping I want. It's all charged by the weight, which makes it tricky to judge how much something will cost, but I find it's cheaper and I get to make exactly what I want, even if everyone else thinks it's gross.

Besides the frozen yogurt itself, it was really nice to be with friends. I've been going through a really rough patch recently, and eating good food with good people definitely makes the week a bit brighter. We didn't really talk about anything in depth, which was probably good, considering I wasn't really ready to share how I feel just yet. Maybe I'll come around, but I really doubt it. I'm finding I can talk to people less and less. And I really don't want to alienate the few friends I have.

But today was a good day.

Thursday, 8 November 2012

Blogging Publicly

Blogging is something I've been thinking about doing for years. I've read books on blogs, the history of blogs, and everything related to blogs I can get my hands on.

The problem with blogging is that I tend to be self conscious about what people think about me. I don't want to constantly be thinking if the way a friend behaves around me has something to do with what I said on my blog that day. I also don't want to have to constantly be censoring myself so as not to upset friends and family.

But at the same time I'd like to be able to write about my feelings and opinions. I thought about starting a blog about my hobbies, but I'm not really interested in anything enough to keep a regular blog.

Well I guess this will be my day-to-day journal then.